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all my sister’s fault, got me hooked on tumblr.

I attempted to rap with my sister today. hahaha. She says i have potential:P it was fun while it lasted.

I WANNA BE LIKE THAT GIRL. SHE CAN RAP, SO COOL:)

Other than the fact a bunch of us walked extra accidentally, but that was fun too.

After that watched SALT, it was quite cool. I think i’m slowly liking this kind of shows like Inception where you have to listen hard and think. Angelina Jolie is really very pretty!!! So jealous of her perfect face. hahaha and she’s a MOTHER!

i really like the waterpark at vivo:) at least the sun was really BRIGHT there so i had a chance to wear my sunnies. Denise and I were trying really hard to whole time to recall a korean song. And it felt awesome when lauraweiszeden and me started singing along with A Thousand Miles in Mango:)

trying to upload pictures of the walk, but my computer is like screwed up much. sighs

Gonna be locked at home tmrw SIAN. feel bad toward Chong for always bangseh-ing her.

I CAN’T WAIT FOR MY OLEVELS. well not that im prepared. i think i’ll freak out next year. especially cause there’s no one in church im actually close to who’s taking Os with me. So stress to take it alone. i mean while everyone is out playing. there i am, STUDYING, ALONE.

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It was really great seeing my primary 6 friends last friday(: one of them changed so much, look what RI does to you. but he changed in a good way i suppose. After i supposedly went home 2 of them lurked downstairs and my mom claimed i had stalkers. hahaha. I miss 2007.

but it was also a great time with my classmates that morning:) at first i felt weird cause it wasn’t the usual group i hang out with, but it was better than i hoped for.

I hope my life’s changing around for the better now.

Cause you know I’d walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

It could have gotten alot worse, but it’s still depressing. I’ve never felt like such an outcast. although  it was worse last year cause i just wasn’t there at the start. But this time its more like I’ve got pushed out? maybe  this was how char felt last year and it was all my fault. I think maybe i’m having what they call, identity crisis? i really don’t know myself, what i like, what my character is, how my brain actually functions. I don’t fit now. Not here. not even there. It’s like i lost myself? I try to distract myself with silly temporary things like korean stuff. I mean they do make me happy for awhile but then when i have to go back there, the whole cycle starts again. I used to be good at these, i used to give advice to people. but they’re right i guess, it’s always not that easy when you’re in the situation yourself. I still can manage, put on a smile, and look as if i don’t notice a thing. It’s really eating me, maybe it’s time to ‘jump ship’ or more like jump back. but i thought i really liked this ‘ship’ better. How do i find myself? I wasn’t like this last time, i wasn’t always this pessimistic, i wasn’t always this ‘introvert’, i wasn’t the kind that felt like punching someone based on their looks and my impressions. I wasn’t this timid either or jealous or insecure. i think i stick out like a sore thumb. i know self-pity is like disgusting, but sometimes you really can’t stop from feeling pathetic. sighs and every time i have a talk with my parents i either get irritated, or they get irritated, or just just end up quarreling. crap lah serious identity crisis. how do i find myself?

” You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces every time
And I don’t need no carryin’ on “

AND I REALLY REALLY WANT TO BUY SUPER JUNIOR BONAMANA REPACKAGED ALBUM. searched online but like $24+, dont know if i should… but all 10 (or 11) of them are so hot! hahaha AWESOME TTM.

i can’t believe TaeYoung’s I Need A Girl won SuJu’s No Other on music bank today ((( freakkkk.

oh my brother bought me a SuJu DVD of most of their MVs compiled, wheee:)

okay so i probably should stop ranting about korean stuff.

Now to taiwan.. hahah. so anyways my sister bought Jiu Xiang Lai Ze Ni, the Jerry Yan and Ella (SHE) show, looks pretty nice. Jerry Yan still looks the SAME as in meteor garden. still looks so young and handsome, 2 dimples much!?

Can’t wait to go out with weisze later:) going to buy all the birthday presents~ gonna burn a huge hole in my pocket.

HAHAHA this quote very cute

“Friends are like bras: close to your heart and there for support.”

heee thank god for the 2 days MC, let me skipped more school

but of course that brought some trouble as well. Quite hard to keep up with the lesson pace with me having like no idea what i’ve missed.

BUT ANYWAYSSSS, tmrw is a saturday. so if YOU are unhappy, turn the frown upside down!

Hopefully i’ll get to watch Eclipse with my sister and germaine tomorrow before No Apologies:)

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i’ve been pretty stressed with my cca. i mean i dont know how to handle those people%^*&$!$#!!

But i’m having fun in class, we’ve changed seating arrangements and im sitting with awesome people around me, except the one infront me. i almost felt like slapping that annoying person today.  ohh it rained really really heavy today so i stayed in class for a couple of hours with joel daniel and daine. and it was really funny cause joel was sprawled across 2 tables and was posing attempting to ‘seduce’ daniel (like he always does) and Mr Yong walked pass and laughed. super ps.

THE AWESOMEST SUPER JUNIOR(((:

Bonamana. only they can make the dance look this cool.

In My Dreams. something about Yesung’s voice tugs my heart:)

“Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl,

is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.”

Edmund is officially the most nosey person ever. hahaha he and john went around forcing people to reveal a secret. even the younger boys caught the disease and started torturing each other to force out a secret.

Loved talking to weisze at night, she makes me go on a emotional rollar coaster whenever we talk(:

On the 2nd day most of the people went out shopping (my sister bought me stuff:) ) but a couple of us stayed back in the hotel. Super “fun” playing Chess with John, we were bored to deathhhhh but we just kept playing hahah. And girls won the guys at fooseball!

Last night was really fun with most of us dressing up Retro style(: Hopefully Joy will post up pictures on FB.

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Of course it was CMD camp last week, surprisingly, though i dont really like kids, i had fun. Especially with yingyan, for the first time we talked with our eyes! hahaha we were sitting across the room and we saw something and immediately stared at each other and its like we were talking with our eyes! hahaha

Philip made a really explosive volcano that actually bursts into flames. literally. & Sam’s overly interested in a question that me and yingyan came up with.

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Sadly time flies when you’re having fun. Got to pon school for the last 3 days, gotta head back tmrw sigh.

This is my new favourite song that i first heard on radio then during Church camp while watching TV

“Someone told me I should  take caution

when it comes to love,

I did.”

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